My name is Heather, I am the Founder, Owner and Administrator of BPDFriends.com and BPDChat.com.

Unknown to me I have been suffering from Borderline Personality basically all my life, without even knowing about it or even knowing of such a disorder. Almost a year ago is when I found out. I will tell you that as I still hate all the crazy thoughts and fears that go through my head. It is such a relief to know that I am not the only one that has these strange bizarre thoughts. When ever I used to here the phrase borderline personality I for some reason always thought it was some sort of multiple personality disorder. Back in 2006, I was diagnosed with being Bipolar.

Early 2009, I decided that I wanted to become a member of a online support group. I joined a few, searched for a few others, only to find that none of them were what I was looking for. All of them didn’t seem to be too active. So I thought why not start my own up. I talked to a longtime online friend of mine David, along with my girlfriend and they agreed it would be a good idea. I then began my search for a great domain. I wanted something that while it is as serious disorder that would also be friendly and have fun as well. It would not only be for those with the disorders but for friends and family members of those who do. I figured that while the phrase BPD usually stands for borderline personality disorder that it could also work for bipolar disorder, so that is where BPDFriends.com began, shortly followed by BPDChat.com

Having BPD has effected my life in just about every way possible as it does with anyone that has it. I seem to have all nine symptoms in which someone only has to have at least five to be diagnosed with it. It effects my friendships, my relationships with my significant others, my work, being a mother, as well as many other things in my life.

I have several past experiences in my childhood that more then likely contribute to my disorder. But I will briefly tell you one and the most dramatic from faded memories.

I was born in San Francisco, CA. I have a sister who was born on my 5th birthday, talk about a crazy but great birthday present. We all (Mom, Dad, Sister and I) lived in a one bedroom apartment. 1 month later on the night of March 20st I was laying in bed late at night. I was supposed to be sleeping, but was unable to. So I was laying in my twin bed, my sister in her little crib on the other side of the room (more or less in the closet, with the doors off). I heard my parents arguing and my mom came in and threw herself on to their bed in the middle of the room, shortly to be followed by my father. My father had a love for hunting, with handguns, rifles, bow and arrows, he even bought me my own archery set. We used to go for picnics and shoot them. Anyhow he came into the room went to his top drawer in his dresser and pulled out a handgun. Went over to the bed and shot her at point blank range. I still remember the blood covering her face, or lack of at that point. I don’t remember much more after that, except for my father telling me it was an accident that he was trying to show her how to use it and waking up the next day at my neighbors house confused and scared.

My grandparents didn’t want us, no one in my family wanted us. So we stayed in a foster home or two (which I remember I hated), we were considered un adoptable because of the two of us they didn’t want to separate us, and most people do not want 2 kids. Finally my mother that I have now (who is actually my 2nd cousin by blood) found out about us. She already had 2 boys but had always wanted girls. So we were flown down to San Diego. I still remember all of about 5 seconds on that flight lol. And that began a new life for me.

As far as to what happened to my father, well from what I understand he was released on temporary insanity due to the fact he was drunk at the time.

Thank you for being apart of BPDFriends.com and BPDChat.com